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Thursday, October 25, 2012

Today when I took the train towards YCK from Khatib, i saw this girl in the train... she was reading her phone msgs and tears welled up in her eyes. For whatever reason that made tears well up in her eyes, not sure why i sensed sorrow in her. For me, as a guy i can't really take it when i see girls like cry/tear and feeling so sad yet i cant do anything about it. When the train came to a stop at YCK, i handed her a packet of tissue and alighted... It could probably be a stupid thing that i have done that but ohh well... it's better to have done something than to regret not doing it?

guanfeng @ 10/25/2012 12:04:00 AM

Monday, July 26, 2010

alright, i've decided to promise you that i'll not backtuck till the screw is removed.

even if the screw has to stay inside forever and that means no backtuck forever, i'll keep to that promise.

guanfeng @ 7/26/2010 01:58:00 AM

a promise, to never backtuck till the screw which is still in my ankle is taken out...

the screw can only be removed 2years from now...

i do not wish to hurt her but,

i wish to backtuck... should i promise to that request...? or should i not?

2years from now... i'd be in NS already...

that's why i wish to be able to do backtuck and more tumbling soon...

but if i promised to not do backtuck till the screw is taken out,

that also meant that i wont do anymore tumbling...

i'm in a dilemma right now...

if i do not promise to it, i'd be breaking the promise i made to myself -- to never hurt her either way...

but if i promised to it, i'd be breaking the promise i made to the juniors -- to show them my backtuck when my leg fully recovered...

the screw, however can be kept there. the doctor told me there there was no need to have it removed... but i feel... that i want to have it removed...

now, i know not wad to do... i'm lost... please someone help me.

please... someone enlighten me...

i... i... i... feel like crying right now...

:'(

i'm lost...

guanfeng @ 7/26/2010 12:33:00 AM

Sunday, April 25, 2010

Hello blog... long time no see hahas xD anyway came here to blog before i return to school tomorrow...

hais when i look at my right ankle... it reminds me of the night i injured it... it's as though it happened just yesterday... on that fateful night...

6th April 2010...

Had training as usual... was preparing for coming up performance on saturday... everything went smoothly and nicely... training ended well... debriefed finished preparing to keep the mats...

Then kelwin came and ask me do a round off backtuck... yes, i was scared as though i sensed something wrong... but then did not want to argue with him so i just went ahead and did it... and WOW!!!

Landed with a loud CRACK! and next thing i know, i was on the floor holding my right ankle... this shocked the whole team lols even from quite a distance can hear the crack sound... hais...

Unable to walk... but surprisingly i felt no pain. the outer side of my ankle began to swell... i've twisted my ankle outwards but inside did not swell...

As i was unable to walk, come of the guys have to take turns carrying me out of school... den flagged down a cab and i was sent to the nearest hospital, CGH...

Coach's boyfriend came down as well and went to the hospital in cab with him, coach and khairul...

Reached there at about 9.59pm, coach helped me register and we waited for my number to be called... the whole thing was ok from consultation to x-ray back to consultation and wrapping of my leg in cast... but the x-ray and x-ray results took very long so everything ended at about 12am...

When i heard the doctor telling me my ankle's condition is very bad... i started tearing... and more tears came out when he said it'll take months before i can use my right leg to walk again...

and i cried even more when i heard i cannot tumble anymore until months and months later...

The condition of my right ankle was that it was fractured, had some cracks on the inside, torn ligaments on the outside... while waiting at the hospital, the inside started to swell up.... it was pretty bad...

the person who helped take x-ray she was so rough with my poor ankle... cried alot that day...

Coach paid for everything for me during that visit to the hospital... from cab fare to bills to food... no choice i had to eat coz i have to eat my medicine... felt so bad... after eating coach cabbed me back home den she cab home.

I'd like to...

Thank Coach's boyfriend, Coach, and Khairul for accompanying me to the hospital.

Thank Coach and his boyfriend for cabbing me back home.

Thank Kelwin, Favian, Kimyong and Khairul for carrying me from sports complex to opposite school.

7th April 2010

Reached home between 12am to 1am... had to trouble my father to come down fetch me back...

den turned on laptop and plurked quite alot... I also cried alot coz i was not able to attend the sports leadership camp which was on the following 2 days... was so looking forward to it.

And when i told Angelia, she said she'd visit me the next day (or rather later. which was actually 7th april she was talking about.) Was quite happy when i heard that.

She's the first person to say she wanna visit me and first girl to say that too :)

That night i have some troubles sleeping but still managed to sleep. woke up in the afternoon and slacked in front of my computer. Chatted with Estee on msn and played some games online.

At about 5pm, Angelia came. I was so happy!

But it did not seem like a normal visit coz she helped me packed my room abit.

I dunno why when i look at her packing my stuffs... somehow, i find her very attractive in a way or two... i just cant help it but keep looking at her once in awhile and just doing nth but staring at her... but i'm always interrupted by her saying "kuai dian wo mei you shi jian." but still she's so attractive... i'll nv forget that day...

She helped me pack my room till about 7pm and had to leave coz she does not want to go home late... she wont stay for dinner no matter how i asked her to... was kind of sad though...

Thanks Angelia for visiting me and helping me pack my room even though there's no time to pack all but it's much neater compared to when it was before... and... well... you're quite attractive in ur own way. even if you say you're not... you still attract me... =X

8th, 9th, 10th, 11th, 12th April 2010

I forgot which of these days khairul came to find me to get cupboard key from me hahas he was scared of the dog in my house xD so funny.

All these days i've stayed at home playing games on my laptop and chatting with Angelia till about 10th April before she go for camp for about a week.

Been chatting with Estee for like everyday since the day i injured my ankle?

10th April was the day of the performance i felt bad coz they had to change everything... coz of me... Glad the performance went well and ChengYee video-called me lols. they were in sakae enjoying themselves... pffft i missed it. And it was justin senior's birthday on this day. Happy Birthday to him hahas.

11th April was the day my facebook was suddenly spammed with photo tags and melo asked me to go view it i was surprised and seriously touched. Coach had asked Blazers to each write me a "get well soon" on A4 papers then she took photos and melo posted them.

Thanks Angelia for everything you've done for me.

Thanks Estee for entertaining me everyday from the day i injured my ankle.

Thanks Coach and Blazers!!!

Thanks Melo for taking ur time to upload and tag those photos

13th April 2010

Chatted with Estee till like 7am or 8am before she go for her orientation. Coz i had problems sleeping with the cast on and it feel uncomfortable... and since she cant sleep accompany her chat.

Kimyong and Terence came to visit me in the afternoon and also to pass me some things like L4D2 and those papers that Blazers wrote for me.

This day, my brother ordered pizza hut lols and kimyong and terence ate too hahas i bet kimyong must be very happy like in heaven.

They slacked abit and chit chat den left for school to gym den training.... and i was bored and lonely yet again....

Estee was off to orientation so i had no1 to entertain me thus played my game after Ky and Ter left.

And Angelia was at Week Zero camp...

Thanks Kimyong and Terence for visiting me.

14th April 2010

Chatted with Estee on MSN and well slacked at home, laid on bed and played some games... too bad i dun have xBox or PS2/PS3 else more things to play i suppose. ChengYee came to visit me coz she's coming down Yishun area to meet up with her frens so she brought along the CCA merit form for me to sign. YAY! And had her help me submit my MC.

Thanks ChengYee for visiting me and bringing the CCA merit form and helping me submit my MC.

Thanks Estee for you accompany although it's just MSN chat and more than half the time we were saying we're bored and had nth to chat about.

15th April 2010

Woke up in the afternoon and did nothing much... all i did was about same as previous days... Also chatted with Estee at night after she returned from training coz in the morning she had orientations...

Thanks Estee.

16th April 2010

To me, i'm getting more and more bored of life like this staying at home and slacking andn o exercising...

My right heel starts to hurt alot and it's like those pain that blisters are growing.... oh well... it's still in cast so nothing can be done...

Like all other nights since 6th April, i chatted with Estee on msn.

17th April 2010

Angelia is finally back from camp hahas. Am glad that she enjoyed herself. Some nights while at camp, she'll come online to chat with me and complain about some stuffs hahas. But she fell sick after the camp.

Like from wad i heard so many ppl falling sick after week zero and orientation... must all take care and drink more water!

Chatted with Estee from morning till nite again... seems like life is getting more and more boring for me...

Angelia take care and rest well :) anything can find me i'll listen to u complain and if u wanna cry i'll lend u my shoulders. All you have to do is ask. And thanks for coming online for afew nites when u in camp to chat with me although i'm usually lost for words.

Thanks Estee and you take care too.

18th, 19th April 2010

Basically these 2 days my life is like as usual as past few days. Woke up late, sleep late, then went online to chat with the usual ppl like Angelia and Estee, played some games and that's about it.

Was not able ot attend first day of school kind of sad...

Thanks Angelia.

Thanks Estee.

20th April 2010

Finally time to remove cast.... (man i feel like stopping now.... hais suddenly dun feel like writing on le... guess i'll stop on this date...)

My cousin drove me to the hospital and i waited there for SuHui. She helped me register and waited for the number to be called... and... ohh well i better stop here seriously feel like crying le.

when i heard i need to have operation, i cried.

when i heard i cannot dun undergo this operation, i cried.

when i heard the operation is putting screws and metal wire into my ankle, i cried even more.

when i heard operation is next day... i... cry until i cant cry anymore...

(not really crying but tears just keep flowing like the water tap that is left running...)

Anyway for this day, i was hospitalised and i wish to say...

Thanks SuHui for accompanying me from 11.40am to about 5pm. and thanks for helping me with everything. form resgistering for the checkup to buying dinner till waiting with me for my parents to come and for pushing me around as i sat in the wheel chair to waiting till 3pm for a bed to be available for me THANKS ALOT!

Thanks Angelia and SiNing for visiting me that day.

guess i'll write more when i feel like it... hais... shall end here.

Sorry ppl for this very long post.

THANKS ALOT ANGELIA FOR EVERYTHING YOU'VE DONE FOR ME.

THANKS ESTEE FOR CHATTING WITH ME ON MSN EVERYDAY FOR 3 WEEKS ALTHOUGH NOTHING MUCH WAS SAID EACH TIME.

guanfeng @ 4/25/2010 07:27:00 PM

Tuesday, April 13, 2010